Nothing like coming home from Paradise and finding this....

So it has been two weeks since I last posted. This summer has been super busy for me! I just got back from a 9 day annual stay in Mexico with my family, and before that I was just getting ready to go. So you can understand why I have not been there. Also due to the length of my break I have a ton of updates!

UDATE NUMBER 1 CLEARTIY AND LIFE DESSIONS:
So while in my paradise of choice I was able to think long and hard about what I want to be when I grow up. I am tired of not having my college degree. I really want something that I can fall back onto if need be. So I thought and thought and I cme to the conclusion that I would love to be a nutrisionalst. I have come to discover that since being diginosed with PCOS and Endo, I have read what seems like every diet medical book I could get my hands on; trying to figure out what would benfit me and get me the goals I desire. So I am going to help myself with that goal and others by getting my degree and certificate in Diet and Nutrition. I am so excited to share my knowledge  that I will be learning.

UPDATE NUMBER 2 DO I REALLY SEE TWO LINES?
I wish I meant pregnancy test wise, but no- I mean ovulation test. Its true I saw two lines! ME! I know it sounds weird to get excited over this, but the last time I saw two lines was when I was given   drugs to help with it. It is so relieving to see that I am ovulating on my own naturally! It makes me feel as though all my hard work is paying off. It was so hard this last week to abstain from sugar. My family and I would start to play games and the Chips Ahoy would break out. It seemed as though I was constantly tempted. I made it through and now I am so glad I did! I am still in shock one faint little line has made my day!

UPDATE NUMBER 3 WEIGHT LOSS IN PARADISE?
Now this surprised me so much! Imagine going on a cruise and when it was done losing weight. It feels near impossible since you are always surrounded by food. Since I didn't partake in sugar, I swam every day, had more energy to play with all the kids that were there and now I feel great! In two weeks I will show my updated picture.

So that is really it. I am super excited about all the changes that are going on and I can't wait to apply everything! Tomorrow I have an ultra sound last time when I went I only had one cyst and I am hoping for the same results tomorrow as well.
Quote of the day:

"I have reflected repeatedly upon the phrase 'the tender mercies of the Lord.' Through personal study, observation, pondering, and prayer, I believe I have come to better understand that the Lord's tender mercies are the very personal and individualized blessings, strength, protection, assurances, guidance, loving-kindnesses, consolation, support, and spiritual gifts which we receive from and because of and through the Lord Jesus Christ. Truly, the Lord suits 'his mercies according to the conditions of the children of men' (D&C 46:15)."

David A. Bednar, "The Tender Mercies of the Lord," Ensign, May 2005, 99

Love, 

Tiff 

mONTH 3 DIET PICTURES

Well, this month I have been kinda nervous to post my pics because I can't tell big difference. But thanks to my hubby who showed me the difference I think I will be brave. Can you see my collar bones? That is is super exciting and I have more of a waist aka I got my ribs back. Sweet! Well let me know what you think here they are!

Quote of the day:

"Life often feels like a great pile of obligations, frustrations, and disappointments. But the Lord is there, always the same, His arms still outstretched. When we feel overwhelmed, we have to remember the peace He has spoken to us on previous occasions. His peace brings comfort and strength; the world cannot give that to us."

Kathleen H. Hughes, "Remembering the Lord's Love, Ensign," Nov. 2006, 111-12



Love,
Tiff

MORE

I have been thinking a lot about this word. More of this more of that more, more, more. In my world when ever I heard the word more it meant more test, more shots, more pills more(fill in the blank). Now that I am on my own it means more research, more exercise, more veggies and fruit. Isn’t it funny how one little word can bring so much “more” thought?

This week I have been kinda bad. I have been taking my Maca root and decided to try it with oatmeal. So I went to the store to find something that I thought it would taste great in. I bought reduce sugar apple and cinnamon oat meal. I cooked it up put it in then enjoyed the flavor of sugar something I haven’t had for over 3 months. When I was done I was thinking hmm that tasted so good! Then my tummy started to ache so bad that I thought that I had a food poisoning. In a way I did. Since my body isn’t used to the sweet taste of sugar it reacted as though I poisoned it. So I guess I will be having no more sugar ever. Its just to painful. Today I will go to the store and by some bananas for my hard oat, oat meal. This also put me off my game I didn’t work out for the last two days. I think I learned a valuable lesson; a little sugar hurts. Oh well.

What things have you been surprised about?

Quote of the day:

"In our society today I see so many people who blame others for their failures. I have observed that those who accept personal responsibility for their actions are more successful than those who blame their shortcomings and lack of accomplishments on someone else."

James E. Faust, "Your Light—a Standard to All Nations," Ensign, May 2006, 112-13

Love,

Tiff

BigFatNegative....AKA BFN

So from the title you may have guess I tested; and by now I am sure you know what the answers is. I am not surprised. I think at this current moment of time in my life it would have been more of a shocker if it was a BFP. I also haven’t given up hope for after all I am only 20 days in. Last month must have been a fluke. So I will test again in two weeks . I will leave it at that. I am just mad that I spent 10.00 on two test at a regular store instead of going to the dollar store and buying 10 test. I really can’t believe I blew my money on whim. Ick where is my patience!



Oh well better luck next time.

Quote of the day:

“We should learn to be patient with ourselves. Recognizing our strengths and our weaknesses, we should strive to use good judgment in all of our choices and decisions, make good use of every opportunity, and do our best in every task we undertake. We should not be unduly discouraged nor in despair at any time when we are doing the best we can. Rather, we should be satisfied with our progress even though it may come slowly at times.”

Joseph B. Wirthlin, “Patience, a Key to Happiness,” Ensign, May 1987, 30

Love,

Tiff

Collar bones oh my!

This morning when I looked in the mirror I saw my collar bone!!!! For the last five years it has been in hibernation under many blankets of fat. I was so excited I squealed!!! Little milestones like these really make my day! It also made me look at my body in a positive light. I am so blessed for all the things it does when I treat it right!

I also wanted to let in on my secret. I haven’t been doing my exercise videos. With summer her in AZ the weather can become unreal. You can sometimes feel like you are walking on the sun. {No Joke}. Coming from Idaho this is a huge blow to me every year. I loved the summer it meant we could go to the river wear shorts, sit in the grass and relax. Here you have to wear shorts to survive, there is really no grass to sit on and even the river can feel like lava! So far the last 4 years I have been hibernating when summer comes. NOT THIS YEAR! This year I am going to embrace it. I found an awesome website that will take your swimming experience and ability and device a plan for you to swim the weight off. Did I mention that it is free? I have loved my workouts so much more with this program!

Here is my first weeks swim program.

Personalized swimming program for Tiffany
www.swimplan.com

Duration 30-45 mins Distance 1200m Pool length 25m

Warm up

4 x 50m Freestyle Swim (even pace), rest 0:15 / 50m [Easy] Freestyle swim at a steady pace.

Build up (repeat 4 times)

1 x 25m Freestyle Catch Up, rest 0:10 / 25m [Aerobic] Freestyle drill where one arm catches up to the other between stokes. Both arms start stretched out. One arm completes full stoke (both arms return to a stretched out position) then the other arm completes a full stroke. Pull with one arm at a time and touch your hands between each alternating arm stroke. •

1 x 25m Streamline Kicking, rest 0:10 / 25m [Aerobic] Freestyle kick with arms held out front in a streamlined position. Fingers overlap with one thumb lightly gripping the opposite hand. Lift your chin above the water to breath without turning your head.



Core (repeat 3 times)

4 x 25m Freestyle, rest 0:15 / 25m (1st & 2nd), rest 0:10 / 25m (3rd & 4th) [Aerobic] Freestyle swim, resting 15 seconds for the first two 25m and 10 seconds for the second two 25m.

• 4 x 25m Breaststroke, rest 0:15 / 25m (1st & 2nd), rest 0:10 / 25m (3rd & 4th) [Aerobic] Breaststroke swim, resting 15 seconds for the first two 25m and 10 seconds for the second two 25m.

Warm down

• 4 x 25m Backstroke Easy, rest 0:10 / 25m [Easy] Backstroke swim at a slow, relaxed pace. Concentrate on long slow strokes.

• 4 x 25m Freestyle Push & Glide, rest 0:10 / 25m [Easy] Freestyle swim, pausing at the end of every stroke with arms out-stretched, one held out front, the other held loosely against the body.



There it is in all its glory!

Another great part about this site is that if you get tired of doing this plan or want to switch it up it gives you a list of different programs to chose from so you can always switch! Go check them out for a great work out.

Quote of the Day

"In my quiet moments, I think of the future with all of its wonderful possibilities and with all of its terrible temptations. I wonder what will happen to you in the next 10 years. Where will you be? What will you be doing? That will depend on the choices you make, some of which may seem unimportant at the time but which will have tremendous consequences.

"Someone has said, 'It may make a difference to all eternity whether we do right or wrong today' (James Freeman Clarke, in Elbert Hubbard's Scrap Book [1923], 95).

"You have the potential to become anything to which you set your mind. You have a mind and a body and a spirit. With these three working together, you can walk the high road that leads to achievement and happiness. But this will require effort and sacrifice and faith."

Gordon B. Hinckley, "Stay on the High Road," Ensign, May 2004, 112-13



Love

Tiff

Just in case you were wondering.

* This is my opinion and I have no affiliation with this website other then using it for my own personal use.

SHOULD I OR SHOULDN'T I...

So I am now at a crossroads. That every infertile women faces when aunt flow is suppose to arrive. Should I or Shouldn’t I test? On one hand I am stung by curiosity {could this be the time? } On the other hand I have been down this road before. I have strong arguments for both and here is why.



I SHOULD…..

Last month was a weird month for me. Tomorrow I will hit 20 days in my cycle. 20 right now is a significant number for me. In case you didn’t know last month I had my first ever 20 day cycle. When you are used to a 35-70 day cycle the one little number of 20 becomes a milestone of importance. Also this 20 day cycle was only six days of spotting. Which could mean implantation. Now I did take two pregnancy test while spotting and they both came out as one might guess BFN. Now though I can’t help thinking… maybe it was to early? Should I let my self go down this path again?



I SHOULDN’T



We are talking about a women with PCOS here. In my world no two cycles are the same. I have been down this road before filled with hope and a lot of anxiety. It painful to feel like you might be close, and yet know in the back of your head that you are probably not. You take each little symptom that you think you may have and you use it until it is brittle to justify your belief that you are indeed pregnant. {For me right now it is the smell of hot dogs} Dear I forget all these little tid bit that I have been allowing to be suppressed in the back of my head? Or do I go down the path that leads to darkness if wrong?



I know I will probably take the first choice and test. It is way to tempting. It reminds me of chasing rainbows when you where a kid. Right when you think you are close you look up and it even farther away. The temptation however is still there closer then ever. What would you do? When would you test? I think I will let my body do what it is going to do and if nothing by Sunday then Monday I will test. What do you think?

Quote of the day:

“Our challenges, including those we create by our own decisions, are part of our test in mortality. Let me assure you that your situation is not beyond the reach of our Savior. Through Him, every struggle can be for our experience and our good (see D&C 122:7). Each temptation we overcome is to strengthen us, not destroy us. The Lord will never allow us to suffer beyond what we can endure (see 1 Corinthians 10:13).”

Robert D. Hales, “Becoming Provident Providers Temporally and Spiritually,” Ensign, May 2009, 7

Love,

Tiff

Refreshed and ready to move on.....

Will I don’t know if you have noticed but I was ready for a break! A time to get some perspective, get on a structured plan, and well get into a better mood. {I was getting so tired of the negative Nelley that was stuck in my head} My hubby must have noticed too and so we deiced to go to the happiest place on earth Disney Land. We had a wonderful time and since we stay at a place with no tv or internet I was able to sit down and think. I thought about a lot things. My disappointments, and my blessings. The choices I have made to come to where I am. I was able to think about all my joy.

Then I came up with a plan. I like structure, I am one of those types who loves to research and learn. I love to make list, wither it be an inventory of my pantry, what I need to get done, or even something as silly as which movies we have. I love them! I also like timelines such as what I am going to be doing from this time to that time and so on. So with my diet which has really only consisted of no sugar, is going to get an upgrade. I have been looking into the Flat Belly diet since I heard about it on Oprah. So on Monday morning I went to my favorite online bookstore Amazon and looked it up to see how much the book would cost. The cheapest I could find was 5.50 plus 3.00 tax and well I didn’t want to spend that much. So I thought I would give it till July to come down in price to like 3.00 and then get it. Later that day we went to Savors; because it was half off day of course. So I went to browse the books like usual and guess what?! They had the book I was wanting to buy for only $2.99! So next Wednesday I will start the flat belly diet; which is perfect since the following Monday I post my 4 month picture. So I will be posting about my new diet all next week.

As part as the baby making update. Nothing really new except I had my first 20day cycle!!!! Holy cow I must say it scared me. I have never had a cycle that short, I must have driven my DR crazy! I must have called at least three times. Here is why when you have cycles that are 35-70 days apart you freak out. Especially since I only spotted. I tried to get her to give me a blood test but since my hpt was a BFN twice she was sure it was just a normal period. We will see though since next week will be day 20 I am kind of wondering what will happen.

So this is what has been happing with me, how has your week been going? Also I am looking for a diet buddy to help keep at it, if you are interested leave me a comment.



Quote of the day:

How might we have joy in our lives, despite all that we may face? Again from the scriptures: ‘Wherefore, be of good cheer, and do not fear, for I the Lord am with you, and will stand by you.’ ”

Thomas S. Monson, “Be of Good Cheer,” Ensign, May 2009, 89

Love,

Tiff