After a very sweet email I received this morning; I deiced that it it time, that I share with the world me story, of how I arrived to where I am now. It all started two years ago in July, when Mark and I deiced it was time, I so happened to go to the DR for my annual, ( isn't that the best?) I informed him that I was trying to conceive (ttc) his answer to me was call me when you get pregnant. Will I had to see him several times over 18months for I have a history of cyst on my ovaries and since they tend to hurt we would check the size, and make sure I was not having a ectopic pregnancy stuff like that. After about a year of continuously seeing my doctor I was up for my regular apt. at which time he asked if I wanted a hpt test I said yes knowing I was not pregnant since by this time I was test addicted. (Yes I would stalk up and test once a week) Will to my surprise the doctor came back and told me I was Pregnant. I shot up and said are you sure? The nurse assured me and told me she even tested me twice. So as you can guess I was over joyed! I told Mark and we just beamed as a family would. Will I went to get my blood drawn, and the next day I got a phone call.
Dr. X: Mrs Johnson?
Dr. X : How are you doing?
Dr X: I have some great news, your NOT pregnant!
Dr X: We thought you would be excited to know you are not pregnant.
Me: But we have been trying for over a year, how is this great?
Dr X: hmm, will you are young call me when you get that positive
Me: Are you sure there is nothing wrong with me, ( I have been asking this for a year now)
Dr X: No no its probably just chemicals you will get pregnant.
Me: oh will thank you
DrX: Have a great day, bye
WHAT THE HECK! Will after this conversation, a second look (at another DR'S where I didn't feel comfortable at all) and then going back only to be reassured nothing is wrong, I went to another Dr, who specializes in fertility. This is the best experience I could have ever done! The doctor listened to me, and all my symptoms, and then he not a tech did an ultra sound. He discovered a few things that blood test later confirmed, I have PCOS and I have not ovulated in two years. After that drs appointment I was angry at two people, the other Doc and me. The evidence was all there, why couldn't he see it? and I knew something was wrong why did I wait? I don't blame my old doctor, he just wasn't there in his knowledge. He is a very good doctor he just wasn't up for the challenge. I also can't blame myself, I was in denial. I mean I have a 3yr old that got here with a blink. Plus I wasn't ready to go through what I am going through now.
Isn't timing an amazing thing? It took an experience that I must say made me a bit stronger, and gave me an important lesson, which is I know my body better then anyone. I know when something is wrong, and if I am confused all I have to do is hit my knees and confirm it. That's it! It may have took me a while but I think and pray I got it! We are now moving forward, how exciting is that? Through all the little road blocks, there is a plan, and a goal. I am moving, sometimes the plan has changed but I am getting there. Let me ask you, doesn't it just feel nice to move towards something? For me it always hurt more when I was standing still. I suppose it is like that in all aspects of life.
Will thanks for listening to me ramble!
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